Happy New Year – Anniversary

Today is the day. The 28th. A year ago today, I was contemplating suicide. Not only contemplating, but just an arms’ reach away from the bottle of pills I was going to down. I have it written in my calendar. It was either go to the hospital or down the pills. Luckily, I fell asleep…

The Flip Side

Never underestimate the power in hitting rock bottom. Once you get there, you are so close to true potential. It’s like catching a glimpse to the other side – what you can and should be. And if you have the stamina to see it through, you will be catapulted. I assure you, hitting rock bottom…

Just Get Through the Process

“I’ll give it to you for free, if you just get through the process.” These words were spoken to me, unconventionally, in a dream about this time last year before a huge transformation began in my life. This year has been nothing but huge transformations…some really bad, and some really good. I think I am…

Levitation – Raising a Dream

Originally posted on ON THE ROCKS :
“The eye sees a thing more clearly in dreams than the imagination awake.” Liz looked down at her phone, desperately trying to figure out how to text, “WAIT FOR ME,” to Chris. She had been in the interview process from the moment the sun rose ’til it set beyond…

YUP!!!

So, today has been a GREAT day, regardless of the fact that they have yet to tell me about the decision. And those days don’t come around that often, I assure you. I have been asking for a BIG FAT YES for a while now. Anyway, today has been CHOCK FULL of positive signs. It…

Kurt Cobain Pulled Me Over on the Side of the Highway

I am revisiting a post I made about 8 months ago, because I came across Kurt Cobain’s ‘last’ letter today in LIFE magazine. Truly hit me to the core. Just another synchronicity to take to the bank today. I escaped my house. We are moving in July. Someone looking at the house raped my room….

I’m Stuffed!

I’d LOVE to be able to taste words! If I could, reading all your posts would be like full course meals, all the time! With a sprinkle of my favorite desserts! Talk about soul food! ❤ And writing…writing would be a full-on culinary experience like no other! “Meet the Man Who Can Taste Words Article…

Stability is a Full-Time Job

It’s a full-time job these days being centered and stable. Since I have begun my journey in sobriety, I have realized that I am still very much so Bipolar. It’s rare that I have a long stretch of good days to be very honest. I have flip flopped so much in the last 7 months,…

Andrew Wyeth’s Chimney Sweep

Did I ever tell you about the time that Andrew Wyeth’s Chimney Sweep, of 20 years, came to my apartment to sweep my chimney? It was one of those chance encounters that I will never forget. I have adored Wyeth for as long as I can remember, so this was very special to me. I…

Catch Up

Never move so fast in your life that your dreams don’t have a chance to catch up with you. Slow down. Breathe. Freeze. Let things align.

Disability

Okay, it is out with it time. I cannot hold on to this any longer or I will burst. I am waiting on an approval from Social Security Disability. Something I have been through the ringer with for over 2 years now. I was denied the first time and appealed and had my hearing two…

Dog-Gone Dreams from Beyond

Well, while I am up in the middle of the night… I may as well tell ya a little story about a few dreams I had right before all hell broke loose at the house a week ago. I have somewhat prophetic dreams…I am still trying to get down the timing and the symbology behind…