It’s a full-time job these days being centered and stable. Since I have begun my journey in sobriety, I have realized that I am still very much so Bipolar. It’s rare that I have a long stretch of good days to be very honest. I have flip flopped so much in the last 7 months, it’s not even funny. If I had a job, I would have been out on FMLA for at least two months out of those 7, maybe more. If I had not been on my meds, I would have surely been institutionalized at least twice over the last 7 months.
As I continue on with my struggle for stability and sobriety, I am realizing more and more how important centeredness and balance is in my life. I used to WISH I were manic and high. Not so much anymore. I feel at my best when I am stable and clear minded.
That is my goal for the rest of the week. It’s not easy.