So, I have decided I need to go. Not to run away. Not to ignore. Not to just brush everything under a rug. But I need to go to a place where I am more understood. Where my experiences are celebrated and cultivated into lamp posts along my path.
Sitting in the dark, suppressing my experiences, and trying to fit them into pathological labels is not healthy for me any longer. It is also not healthy for me to MAKE people in my life, currently, understand and adopt my beliefs. Those are mine and everyone has their own. And I respect that. I take my medication as prescribed because I don’t want what happened to me to happen again or at least not to that severity. But I also don’t want to ignore the spiritual experiences I had during it either.
So, I must walk my path and find a ‘tribe’ in which to belong, where I can make sense of my experiences. I want to learn from others. I want to be able to share. I want to breathe and live to my fullest potential and help others as I go along.
I have decided to apply to Sophia University at some point this year or next. It is in California, across the U.S. for me. It is a transformative transpersonal psychology education, where I will learn to meld psychology, spirituality and art. I need structure as I embark on my new path in Art Therapy. Think Jung, Maslow, Grof.
“The transpersonal is a term used by different schools of philosophy and psychology in order to describe experiences and worldviews that extend beyond the personal level of the psyche, and beyond mundane worldly events. It has been defined as experiences “in which the sense of identity or self extends beyond (trans) the individual or personal to encompass wider aspects of humankind, life, psyche or cosmos”. The field of Transpersonal Psychiatry has defined the term as “development beyond conventional, personal or individual levels.” It is related to the terminology of peak experience, altered states of consciousness, and spiritual experiences.”
I have discovered that life begins outside our comfort zones, but once I found my personal path and dropped judgements, I found that I had all the confidence in the world to take my next steps. It is still scary. It is still unknown. But everything new, is.