Eternal Slumber.

Tomorrow, I set the clocks back 37 years into an eternal slumber. I have no more words left for this life.

We all once thought meds were the answer until they didn’t buy us sanity. They are not and no one listened. We all once thought love was the answer until it didn’t buy us truth. It is not and no one listened. We all once thought pain was the answer until it didn’t buy us rebirth. It is not and no one listened. We all once thought sobriety was the answer until it didn’t buy us support. It is not and no one listened. We all once thought taking everything you have away was the answer until it didn’t buy us a rebuild. It is not and no one listened. We all thought money was the answer until it didn’t buy us love. It is not and no one listened.

I had really big plans for my future. Beyond even what I could have imagined. I did. It included all these things, yet in my search for something more than all combined, I was never fully satisfied. One thing I do know is that it always go deeper and I’m about to find out just how deep it can go.

I don’t have the strength to believe anymore, only to have it snatched away right before launch every single time.

I just don’t.

I am dead already.

It is time to sleepp.

I gave my all to God and it is simply too late.

Now he can take my soul and do as he pleases.

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