Today, I’m just tired. Fed up with recovery..and all of it. I’ve been feeling like this for a while now. I’ve been at this for far too long with very little fun in between and no clear sign of getting any better. I’m so worn down. Recovery is a bitch. It’s too heavy. I don’t remember what it was like to feel light hearted. I was this past summer, but even that was a delusion. It’s really disheartening to work for something so hard and have it be ripped away, time after time.
Maybe it truly is just me. Maybe I really am the problem.
Just for Today, I don’t have the strength. I am not okay.